Selfishness to Surrender

This past few days, I've been noticing that I've become a little too selfish. I want things done the way I want them to be done, and have been moaning and showing some attitude when my parents tell me otherwise. I sometimes think that this may be due to my feeling of future "independence" when I move to college in less than a month, but I think it may have grown deeper than that. Maybe I have refused to let others tell me what to do, and have become so hot headed that I might miss out on valuable advice that other people (my parents) offer. Maybe I've been too constrictive of my life to let God take full control over it. I want things done my way, and that is a pretty bad sign of the selfishness that will inhibit me from having Jesus as pilot of my life. It has never been too late to change my ways, and when I reflect on these things, I'm drawn to the song "Take All of Me" by Hillsong United. The main chorus strikes me as it says "I love you, all of my hope is in you....Jesus Christ, take my heart, take all of me" To be full surrendered to God requires full obedience, an aspect of my life that requires working with the help of the Holy Spirit. Disobedience, as the Bible says, is as good as idolatry, and I think that I have become the idol. I've been too busy thinking of what I want and what I have to do rather than to obey my Creator and let him fulfill my needs and desires according to His time. I believe when I fully surrender to His will....only then I can truly get rid of my stubbornness and pride.